Cellar Door

'Cellar Door' is the working title of my baby.  My manuscript.  It's been through four drafts and somehow I always find more drafting to do.  It's not ready yet and I refuse to send it out into the world and just hope everyone else likes it better than I do.  I think the last time it was a topic of conversation with a friend I got a morose head wag and "You gotta focus, man."  It's not so much the concern in that reply that bothers me, but the implied judgment.  Why do I 'gotta' to do anything for anyone except myself where my own work is concerned?  I don't think I do.

Actually, I'm not lacking focus, just speed.  That's my choice in the interest of quality, not a flaw.  It's also the result of needing to pay bills in the present. To that end, I work a day job and produce jewelry to sell.    But I also work on CD almost daily; writing, editing, continuity...  I think part of my problem is that I want to do all of the jobs concerned in creating a novel, not just write it.  Control freak much?  *nods gravely at the question*  Anyway, when I have news or thoughts to blab on the project, I'll do it here.


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